Mish Mosh Migraines

Well it’s near the end of January, already –it’s gone so fast! Last night it got cold, not our first cold of this Winter, but I do think the coldest thus far. It was in the very low 20′s overnight, and only has gotten to 37 degrees today so far, 3:18pm Eastern, with a “supposed to” get to of 41 degrees this afternoon.

I’m doing OK but not great. The baby I’ve felt moving some, I do think, nothing major still though. I’m struggling with the remains of a cold –and possibly a migraine today. I’m taking it all more seriously, the migraine thing, trying to keep track of what I eat and what I feel like, and hopefully determine a better way for myself, like I’ve done with some things the last few years, but getting moreso into the natural migraine way of seeking to avoid things that layer upon each other and trigger at some point.

I haven’t been as migraine-prone the last few years as I was before that. My migraines aren’t as debilatating, though I react to them nearly as laid back as I can (relaxing as much as possible, but not staying down, necessarily.)

I’ve had more migraines in this pregnancy than I’ve had before getting pregnant the last year or more.

One thing is potatoes. I stopped having them in the house quite a long time ago, and we were OK with it. I did that for blood type reasons, and seeing how I felt after giving them up. It was a good thing. I didn’t feel as horrible, not over full and icky after meals in general that used to have P’s in them.

Also I had a thing in my wrist that hurt, and it felt arthritic, and went away after being off of P’s for a few weeks. That was a couple of years ago. In November 2006 FIL was here for Thanksgiving and I got P’s to make mashed potatoes since he was there. Since then we’ve had potatoes in the house sometimes, shred and fry them for breakfast, or whatever. I’ve also had some in restaurants just to have something more than meat to eat :rolleyes: so many restaurants are so not into alternatives for people seeking to not eat Potatoes still.

It’s all added up to something in my wrist/hand starting to hurt in the last week and a half.

I have usually had trouble with tense muscles in my neck/back and so many things seem to come into play symptomatically with this: migraines and this thing in my arm now. So I’m turning off the intake of potatoes all the way with me again. I have a list of foods from a website that’s not up and running right now, I had linked it on my other blog a long while ago, and looked recently and did find a cache of what I wanted.

Potatoes are one thing on that list, being part of a list of things I love that might be causation for migraines. (In particular it’s interesting to note my not being on potatoes then being on them again, and my ramped up problems with head and muscles of late.)

Too many other things that are staples in our lives here are on that list … so I need to try so hard to figure out which things are problematic for me, and which things are not. I want to do this for my whole family, for me to be a better me for them, and also for them, my children are sensative individuals and come with historical connection on both sides of their family for allergies, migraines, etc. I don’t want my boys or girl to be overwhelmed with migraines. I started having “headaches” in my childhood, which the doctor poo-pooed as “familial” and nothing he cared to do about it. By the time I was 16 I had debilatating headaches occassionally, which I carried with me into my future life, and self-diagnosed myself as a migraine sufferer in my early 20′s finally. I had episodes of horrible times, very inconvenient, and nothing to aide my assuaging the pain, not understanding what was what.

I finally did develop diffent techniques on my own to deal with them, and one is the aide of my DH, rubbing out my shoulders, neck and back, feet too if I can get him to do that much. If I have a migraine, these things can aide me greatly, and also rubbing my head on whichever side the pain is on can be dramatic relief, aiding my body to relax more, which is key to less symptoms, at least. He’s not always around when I need him though, and when he is around he’s not always ‘in the mood’ to aide me as much as I would like/need.

Right now I’m in a mode of tight muscles, he knows it and will do something for me, but hasn’t had the time to do it today where I need it for as long as I need it, and I really need a whole feet/back/shoulders deal, then into a nice salty warm bath with beeswax candles lit. Ahhh.

Another mode of aide to a horrid migraine that has helped me is icing the pain out. It’s not something that just anyone could tolerate, but I find it a super thing (but we don’t have ice in the house usually anymore, our ice maker isn’t hooked up to water since we moved the fridge to another spot a long, long time ago.) Ziplock gallon freezer bags with cubes of ice, on my neck and top and side of the head if it’s debilatating can be so freeing. Sinking into sleep as the pain is numbed … it often worked well, sometimes less than others, but usually worked really well.

If it’s a headache that won’t go away, one seemingly working thing was to do the ice, and make sure I get to the point that my body just shivers and I get a cold shiver rise from my feet to the top of my head, and at that point it can be a turning of the pain to calmness and relief.

Another way is to take a hot shower and then stand out in the bathroom without toweling off and get that shiver started.

I’ve not had much to do with those things the last few years. I started using Excedrin and find it works some, or well, depending. I don’t want to continue on it though, being pregnant. So I’ll delve back into the natural ways I dealt with pain before as much as I can, keeping up with muscle rubs before getting a migraine, if possible, and relaxing and being as into eating better as I can (avoiding all low-blood sugar events as possible being key, and avoiding triggers, whatever they are for me in the food department.)

I have to say though, get rid of milk, cheese, tomatoes, just those three (that are on the same list as the potatoes) I can’t imagine doing. Especially the cheese and tomato. Eek!

I know that my headaches aren’t totally hormonally connected, not sure how much they are. I know I feel triggers with environmental things, lights and sounds and such can trigger it for me. Allergies don’t aide me, no doubt, either.

So what am I making for dinner? Cheesed Stuffed Mannicotti w/marinara/meatsauce — :rolleyes:

WP 2.1 upgrade stuff

I upgraded my blogs to WP 2.1 the other day. I haven’t have time to go over them and fix all the things that “went away” that I want to be there … like on THIS weblog … my “photo” post at the top of the page is something I put there not long ago, but it’s something I wanted to do for a very long time, have it there, and I forgot about my “upgrade” when I went to my blog page last night for the first time since upgrading and was shocked at how empty it looked. My sidebar is icky too –all my custom things gone … but it’s no big deal … I used, as usual on this host, One-Click Install and with that it means my “upgrade” was done by the host and with that I get a new folder on the server with a “.old” that is my weblog folder from before the upgrade.

All I need to do is to open up the little files from my “.old” theme and copy-paste to my WP 2.1 theme files.

I did work on another blog after upgrading the other day. My own blue smilies I had on here, and there, were/are gone. This is normal with all upgrades, but doing what I usually do to re-do them on upgrades, I now have no smilies on that other blog, it’s not working. For some reason no smilies show up now at all.

I have to re-try again today and see if I made some mistake, or what. I did look a bit around on the Support forum for WP and didn’t find anything about my problem with smilies, and I hope I’ll find the answer on my own, and not have to look, look, look for an answer.

So then I’ll have to go over my blogs and see what else is missing or not working rightly and get that all fixed up.

Weather and how things are going

It’s been so very gray/grey out the past few days mostly. Thank goodness it’s also “normal” like temps for January, highs near 51, maybe over, maybe a bit under, and lows not too low mostly, so that the heatpump works to keep some of the house feeling warmer than cold, and the fireplace can happily be used for good will, cheer, and warmth in our main floor area of the house [that has the higher (cathedral vaulted) ceiling] which is difficult to heat. Our house is on one “zone” with the heatpump/AC which is troublesome in winter and summer.

The gray/gey days of winter make the house much, much cooler, and the sunny days of winter make the house so much easier to be kept comfy warm enough.

Well, my pregnancy continues. I actually finally felt the baby moving a little on Friday, then more on Saturday, but nothing really since … so I was more confident on Saturday and into Sunday, then grew less so confident as Sunday wore on, wishing to feel things as I had the day before … not sure if it’s just that things are less feeling if the baby is moreso moving in a different part of my/their womb space. I’m 18/19 weeks now. Things moved around alot during our trip to WI last week, it seems, I noticed it on Thursday moreso, when finally I felt bit more rested after returning home. I surely noted it for certain on Friday. (I haven’t seen midwife yet, won’t be able to until some weeks from now, which is similar to how I approached my third pregnancy, my natural baby A. who is now 6.)

I’m using SuperMom vitamin/supplement from Beeyoutiful.com and also TummyTuneup, and a few other things that I take or will take sooner than later every so often. Good stuff to make things go better for me. I need to get on a good routine with the main thing, SuperMom, but overall I’m doing better with it than I have with any other prenatal in my past. It’s a big pill, but really goes down alright, and I have no ‘aftertaste’ burps from it, when I have from most any other vitamin that contains B’s for one thing.

I do think I feel better after I’ve taken a few days of SuperMom, and just need to be sure to keep up with it day by day and not forget even once to take it when I should. I also have SuperDad for hubby, and am trying to get HIM routinely taking it (wanting him to be healthier and lose inches …) eat better … the TummyTuneup is important for both us, as we aren’t “good yogurt” eaters, I can’t stand the texture of yogurt (I have a very sensitive pickiness about textures) and hubby eats icky yogurt like when on the road, hotel breakfasts, the type they stock. I do buy decent yogurt to use in recipes and for the children to eat occassionally, but I don’t do that for them often enough, will in the future. So then, me and hubby use TummyTuneup a few days a week at the least, and if the children seem to need it, they get some a day or two in a row, for now, until I get them on a regular yogurt habit.

I was also supplementing the children’s D Vit. via Cod Liver supplementation, and should have kept up with it, but dropped off of it a few weeks ago, and the children picked up head colds from our trip to WI … which aren’t that bad, but worse than having none! I sort of have felt a tad under the weather, but feel like it hasn’t taken hold of me, I fought it off with less symptoms, which is great (and often the case over the years, with the children’s ill times being worse than mine when we share the germs. With some things, like viruses that immunities are created in one for dealing with it, children have to deal with things differently than adults, who have gone through more since they were once children and have grown up and so on.)

As that goes though, I do know that the “national average” for colds in children is 6 to 10 a year, or more for some, and in our home we are under that, but we do homeschool and also my hubby doesn’t work in a corporate office, having most of his work at home, with some in-town like travel and some out-of-town travel. A big difference is not having “office” life to gain germ transfer from, and no school groupings to gain germ transfer from. A healthier bottom line comes from staying healthier, therefore being sick less often, and stronger and able to fight off any germs that do come by to visit more easily. :) This is important to me for my family since we are an allergy suffering family and have to be careful, be vigilant. :)

As far as my baby goes, I do think I am feeling some things every once in awhile, but since he/she is so small still, it’s not as evident unless they are banging into the walls of their enclosure, like the front which faces my outer-ness, as on Friday and Saturday, so I need to just ‘chill’ and wait and see how things develop in the coming weeks, which I’ve done all along.

Icy Weather

It’s a bit icy now. Some tiny icicles hanging of a “some” things, but not much. My little table on the deck has a glass top and it’s iced over.

I had looked at the thermometer and posted about it in the middle of the night, it was 38 then, now it’s 35 and has been holding there since at least 7am-ish, or earlier. (The thermometer on our porch.)

So this is an ice thing, just hardly anything at all. Just a wet day, cold light rain, and little bits of ice, near 32 F. – maybe it is out in the yard, but it is probably above that, and the ground is warm, so … nothing very pretty about the weather. No problems either, though.

Ice or Not?

East of Atlanta, where we reside, it’s supposed to be messy overnight (now) through sometime this morning. I just checked my thermometer on the front “porch” and it’s reading at 38 degrees F. The “porch” is a little one, mostly a protective entry …

It it’s raining currently, just a light rain. It’s most likely cooler out away from the house, but it does look to be just rain falling, no icy mix, yet, from what I can see from the doorway.

This is our first threat of winter “storm weather” this winter (2006/2007)… FWIW.

Our January 2007 Trip

I am very tired. We had a crazy last several days and today is the first day to even really have the opportunity to recover.

On Friday morning we left for a trip to Janesville, WI, east of Madison. We flew in to Milwaukee’s Int. airport from Atlanta. Going through security was my biggest advanced hate, and it wasn’t as bad as it could have been, no doubt, but it was against my whole being to have to take off my boots and put them in a plastic bin and send them down the row to be scanned, and also all my carry-on bags, and taking out anything that was supposed to go into a zip-lock bag (liquid, cream sorts of things, 3 oz. or less only) and also take out my camera and laptop and plop them into bins and send them and all the previous down the line to be scanned.

In the old days, last time I ever flew on an airline, in the 90′s, things were quite much more simple, put your stuff on the moving belt to be scanned and you walk through the thingie and pick up your bags and move on.

Well, this time, it was my first post-911 flight, and walking through the thingie was no big deal, just doing it sans shoes was annoying to me, and then having to wait while those in front of you were putting all their things back together before you could move ahead and start gathering up your own possessions.

We were travelling as a family, so it problably made it easier on us, in some ways, but also harder. I mean, just normal scrutiny, but major hassle, talking here about two adults, and three children, all the stuff 5 people tote around.

We only checked one bag, so everything else was ‘carry-on’ — and taking it apart as “they” make you, it was a huge stream of stuff coming out of the scanner ever so sloooo-wwww-ly and the people behind us moved through the thingie faster than our stuff, so bog up … that was that.

We were on a smaller jet, Delta, and the flight was alright, overcast skies the whole way. Landing was rough, and though I haven’t flown much in my lifetime, it’s been enough to know that I’ve never had such a rough landing. DH flies a lot, and he says the same thing about that landing. Seems possible from how it felt, and a few things I side-heard from the flight people as I walked by, that maybe it was a rear tire that blew. It was alright, just really rough and noisy –crazy.

We were in WI due to DH’s work, a “late Christmas party” of sorts. We went to dinner with a few people from work that night, and then on Saturday we were on our own for the day. We drove to Madison and did some shopping. While there it began to snow, and got colder. There was no snow on the ground when we arrived. The snow didn’t hit Janesville until much later. That night we met with the work people and got on a chartered bus to go to Medieval Times in IL.

That was a great time for the children. We’d not ever been there before, but we did get a new one in the Atlanta area recently and have been interested in going. I’d also wanted to go to one before now, before we had children and since, but we just never did it.

So then, we got seats middle on the end, first row. Excellent seats, it wasn’t planned that WE’D have those seats, but it just so happened that those seats were what were handed to us as we went through our special group line when arriving.

Dinner was good. The show was nice. We had the Blue Knight assigned to our section, and he did good, but then was ‘killed’ later. But before that, he did throw flowers to the crowd a few times, and I tried to get my daughter, 8-yrs, to put her hands up asking for one … she was reticent at first, then the second time she was more vibrant about it, and he ‘whispered’ to us “I have something special for you later” … :)

So eventually it came to the time where he presented a special ribbon to the “Queen … of Beauty … ” and it was my dear little daughter. Made our night.

There were official pictures taken of that event, and of course we were privy to being able to buy a composite special photo in a folder. I’ll scan it later for another post, or page.

I have photos from my camera of the show, but I haven’t downloaded them from my camera yet, so I’m not sure how well most of them turned out.

On Sunday we were worn out and didn’t feel so good overall, all of us, so we later got into our rental car and drove around Janesville, at my request, looking for the older houses of the area. We found them easily, and they do have a nice variety of older houses, well kept up too.

It snowed more that afternoon/night and was nice, not too much. Monday morning we got ready and finally left for the airport to come home. Our flight was scheduled for about 4:30pm Central, and that was just before sunset. Going through security this time wasn’t as intensive, smaller airport, only one line, but not many people. (Atlanta had many lines open and tons of people in all lines with people waiting to get into line as well.) We still had to do all the “things” but it was less pressure. (Though I still disliked it just as much!)

We were on a larger jet this time. Beforehand we ate at the Gen. Mitchell Cafe … an airport restaurant there in Gen. Mitchell Int. Airport, Milwaukee … , it was the best meal “out” that I’ve had in ages. I had a bowl of cheddar cheese soup (fantastic) and an entree that was a brat and a knock (worst) with German Potato Salad. Wow it was all great. My 10-yr-old boy had his first Patty Melt there, and loved it, but I must say, it looked nicer than anything from any “normal place” you could find one on the menu. My other two children shared a plate of spaghetti and meatballs, and it was also good, big meatballs, not huge, very tasty they said and they enjoyed it greatly. Now then, my hubby, he had … I don’t remember. Well I do recall he started with a ‘green salad’ and that was a beauty. It’s what you DO NOT find in any chain restaurant, and something I’ve rarely seen anywhere. (I have one experience of a fantastic salad from a restaurant north of Atlanta metro nearly several years ago. We don’t try many “small” establishments, mostly going with (not my favorite thing) chain restaurants.)

So filled very happily we set off to go through security from there, and then on to find our gate. We were able to switch our seats around after boarding, and all had seats right behind the wing on the right side of the plane, V. in her own seat by the window, then R. in his own seat by the window, then A. in his own seat by the window, then My hubby and me behind, with me by the window.

It was overcast the whole trip from Milwaukee to Atlanta. Landing was smooth as butter. Getting off the plane into the terminal began the nightmare of a clogged up airport, people, people, people, ugh. It wasn’t fun getting through to the doors, to collect our one checked bag, and then traverse the parking area to find our vehicle, which wasn’t exactly where DH thought it was.

Finally we arrived home. Home, Home, Home. Where my lovely kitties live, whom I missed greatly while we were away. It’s a lovely thing to have kitties again, when you didn’t have even one from Friday morning to Monday Night.

Tuesday we ended up having to go out to grocery shop (knowing it worth the pain of doing so right away, rather than waiting with little food in the house, resting but knowing we HAVE to go out sooner than later … so it was a pull ourselves up by bootstraps time, get into the vehicle and drive … again.)

So today is recoupe time. We have laundry to do, and cleanup that we didn’t do before leaving, and more. But also, rest, rest, rest.

Fly Pen #2

My Fly Pentop Computer bundle, ordered from Leap Frog online, came via UPS a day earlier than they ‘said’ it would be delivered. So, it’s been here since early Tuesday afternoon, and I am enjoying using it here and there ever since.

Now I have to wait to get some of the FlyWare titles that will aide the family in Spelling, Writing, and Math functions, which are products made for the Fly Pen. The top comes off of the unit, and the “Fly Ware cartridge” of whichever title you have fits onto that space. The Fly Pen then works with the pre-printed Fly Paper for whatever FlyWare title you have, and somewhat on Open Fly Paper depending on what it is, as well.

I have Fear Factor games, it came in the bundle I purchased. It’s interesting. There is a pre-printed booklet, and that works with the Fly Pen. I have looked at it, but haven’t used it yet. I have looked at the sample Games booklet that came in the Launch Pad and find them fun and challenging enough to stay interesting to an adult, though they aren’t fully super adult challenging for smaries, you know, of course.

Anyway, there are game modes built into the Fly Pen as well, you use the Fly Pen and draw FlyCons on Open Fly Paper to create menus and game boards. Like for one, FlyMatch has quite a few categories, though not a ton of them, and you draw an even number of circles up to 20 to use as the game board. Then choosing categories and options, you use your game board by touching the Fly Pen to the circles. It’s harder than Leap Pad system games, since it’s blind and audial — you have to listen and remember where things are based on which circle you touched — it’s something to use to get the mind quicker, indeed. 20 circles makes it confusing, but it’s doable in decent time, just something to work at getting better at. It’s challenging for Tweens, no doubt. The lovely thing is, you make your game board as large, up to 20 circles, as you wish. I made two different sets of Fly Match on one notebook page in my Fly Notebook of Open FlyPaper. One is 20, the other is 10. FWIW

I used to do puzzles in puzzle magazines, but had dropped off of that in the last umph years, getting one in the past couple of years, and another sometime before that, but nothing like I used to get them when I was in my younger twenties, and before that too. It’s nice with the Fly Pen to have some mind quickening activities at my finger tips with the proper paper. I hope to get things moving faster and get back to some of the challenging puzzle mags sooner than later. (It’s important to keep the mind as lightening quick as you can all your life, and don’t let it slide for long when getting older, but keep it up, ramp it up, keep it going … )

I really do like this Fly Pen technology. It’s different, it’s interesting, and it takes active interest in it to make it work, and manual writing also, and well, it’s just a nice bridge for paper and computer … but on a different level than computer and printer, by far, quite more archaic, but new, different, a fleck of site into future development possibilities in this technological vein. It’s a tool for writing and figuring things out, and playing interesting match-up games, and making music. It has broader usage than that with Fly Ware, and I hope Leap Frog will develop more in this line than they did in the Leap Pad line, with Quantum Leap Pad especially, that was a dissapointment –> really.

The Positive Method

The Underground History of American Education by John Taylor Gatto, from Chapter 8 on “The Positive Method”.

… To understand all this you have to be willing to see there is no known way to stop the social mutilation positive science leaves in its wake. Society must forcibly be adapted to accept its own continuing disintegration as a natural and inevitable thing, and taught to recognize its own resistance as a form of pathology to be expunged. Once an economic system becomes dependent on positive science, it can’t allow any form of education to take root which might interrupt the constant accumulation of observations which produce the next scientific advance.

In simple terms, what ordinary people call religious truth, liberty, free will, family values, the idea that life is not centrally about consumption or good physical health or getting rich—all these have to be strangled in the cause of progress. What inures the positivistic soul to the agony it inflicts on others is its righteous certainty that these bad times will pass. Evolution will breed out of existence unfortunates who can’t tolerate this discipline.

This is the sacred narrative of modernity, its substitute for the message of the Nazarene. History will end in Chautauqua. School is a means to this end.

This passage is key to how I see “society” and am odds with it, in my beliefs of education, family life, God, Agrarianism, etc. It’s troublesome to have to actually see someone else write what I know deep inside already, that it’s ineveitable, that my views are underdog and won’t surface in my lifetime as majority view of population (though I hold HOPE out that they can be, will be) I cannot accept the forced down my throat junk from “them” that it’s all downhill for me and upward for “progress” … inevitability is there, sure, but I don’t accept it, I don’t and won’t.

I’ve had talks with people about Isaiah’s prophetic passages and Agrarianism and the future and they can’t see what I’m talking about, can’t see past “progress” –and this Gatto passage is great fuel for me, therefore, in understanding the side of people which I have impossibly tried to pass on a vision of Agrarian lovelyness to, NOT a utopia, just a better way to live, just a village living, de-centralized government, farming celebrated, natural things in use, “progress” and “science” put in their proper places, “efficiency” only a tool to be used at the right time –not the “end all” of everything, and so on. A true progress in man, man truly gaining perspective of this Earth we live on Under God’s watchful eyes, it sounds utopian, but ain’t … it’s the far outlook of man connecting in graciousness to the Earth and each other under God, and seeing what is valuable to the soul and mind and body, not perverting anything to gain power over others. A pipe dream many would call it. That’s not my way of seeing it though, I see things going on at some point, getting past this roadblock life we currently have. In my lifetime, nah, in some future generation, sure.

So we strive to do what we can in this age … rhetoric is key. I’m working on ideas for writing more about this and connecting things, in a book, maybe. Not just what this blog post is about … but all of life and how different learning and education and intellect are from schooling … and how society is structured and how it all relates to us with an Old-Time Patriot outlook, home educating our children, worshipping God, living differently from most others, and so on.

This is something to understand as well: people like me don’t abhor technology, just Technology, we don’t abhor progress, just Progress, we don’t abhor science, just Science. Capiche?

We have computers and television in our home. We watch movies and listen to all sorts of music digitally. Some people think this is wrong if we say we are “agrarians” … this is a prejudicial view and what must be dismantled through some critical work of complexity, that which I am attempting to put together. I’ve had these ideas for years and am gathering, gathering, gathering, and getting ready to start actually acting on it instead of just “thinking” about it and “talking” about and “writing blog and message board posts” about it. I mean, by “acting on it” to begin writing things for a “book” to put together and publish somehow. Our voices are important in history. We should shout out the truth.

Positivism? — I like the highs and lows, pain and suffering — it’s what makes feeling good and things going well actually MEAN SOMETHING for the human. Positivism is embued through so much, and I can see how it frustrated my family and made a mess of them (the one I was born into) and why I’ve rebelled against it so heavily. :)

I don’t write this sort of stuff on this blog much. I think about it nearly all the time though. I used to have a site I planned to write about Agrarian stuff on, but ditched the idea when I just never got myself to dissect my family self from the actual information in my head. Of course I can’t dissect it away. I do have another website that is dormant basically right now, where I had planned to be moreso my ‘family self’ but find that though I wish to dissect my self from my family self and such, I just can’t. And so it goes.

Education in America

The Underground History of American Education

Someone reminded me of the book linked above, and I’ve begun to read it, online. I have read PARTS of it in the past. I find John Taylor Gatto’s writings to be fun to read, informative and knod, knod, knod respective.

Myself I was part of public schooling from 5 years of age up to … well, things got really dicey for me in my teens. I had thinking that wasn’t what school wanted. I hated school, in different ways, liking parts of it, but knowing that something could be different, that I was different, not suited to it.

I was 13 when my family moved from PA to FL and there in FL the schools wouldn’t take us children until we had a history of utility bills to prove residency. So moving there in October, I had a bit of freedom before being forced back into school.

I found things really strange when finally I was allowed to register and start going again. First off, I felt like I was signing my life away, and being put into some deep prison, paperwork they made ME fill out, 13-year old me, not that I wasn’t able to do it, but it was administrative garbage and made me sick to have to do.

Then I had to take a vocabulary test. This test would prove to the Admin’s what group I’d be put in. Since I was a literary lover I scored high to perfect on the “test” (a very simple/dumb test) I was put into the highest “track” –of which I think there were 5 levels.

This was an experimental school. The building was a large, round-ish building, divided up into multiple class-rooms, but not “rooms” the whole building was open, with the “rooms” being “dividers” — each grade could hear all the other grades, all tracks could hear all the other tracks. It was mass noise horrific. So we’d sit in our classes and for “test times” have no surety of quiet. Big deal, in actuality, I found it all a joke.

I had been involved in “music” since 2nd grade at my previous school in PA. In this new FL school they didn’t allow me to join the “chorus” since I didn’t have “credentials” that I could only have gotten in a previous class in the very school I was only then joining into. It was an impossible thing. It made me mad, for a short time. Not too long afterward I had the opportuntity to hear the ‘chorus’ and was immensely relieved that I hadn’t been able to join in. It was so juvenile, so beneath my experience and abilities.

That was the first time I had no music or art in my schooling career. The academics weren’t challenging, and I was in the highest track, mind you.

My memories of that time are so clear, and reading some of Gatto’s writings afresh … Dumbed-down isn’t what I was in, it was worse.

Well I had just that one year there, and went to a different school the next year, HS for 9th grade. This was a school so overfilled, it had split-sessions. I went from Noon-ish to 5pm. I had troubles due to Phys. Ed (Gym class) but besides that, it was a bad experience fully from the “feel” of the school. It had an “inner city” feeling to it, while not being part of any megalopolis, just one of the areas in S. Florida, it was situated right by I-95 in very old buildings (relatively speaking) and the teachers were so very different from any previous that I’d had. I think I’ve written about this before, mostly about the Gym class, but also about the Reading Lab I was put into for a spell.

That was a reprieve of sorts, that Reading Lab, where I got to read literature and short stories, and be tested for comprehension and pushed deeper into comprehensioned things, like a chain-reaction based on my comprehension — getting to read further things as a result.

This was individualized, and therefore a dream to attend to. The lady in charge didn’t feel like a “teacher” to me but an ‘overseer’ of sorts, like someone guiding, not necessarily “in charge of me” but showing me the path … though it wasn’t really like that, but just “seemed to be so.” It was moreso Mentor-ish, I suppose.

This wasn’t something that lasted very long, it was an outlet from another English class, just a Lab for a set time. The lady though was thrilled with me and made me see she saw me as quite an unexpected delight to work with. My comprehension was great, blah, blah, blah, which wasn’t inflating to me, I didn’t see how it was that incredible, it was normal, to me. :rolleyes:

I really didn’t like that school, for many reasons, and sooner than later, I refused to go to school. My mother tried to force me, but couldn’t enforce my going, I was a rock about it. I “begged” her to let me stay and she could “school” me at home. My mother didn’t know what I meant and said she couldn’t do that. So I just educated myself, reading every “Readers Digest Condensed Book” that we had, which was a few bookshelves worth of volumes. I watched old movies in the afternoons on the local PBS station. I listened to the radio, wrote things down, just did my own thing.

That was my best year in school, once I was home (I stayed in that school for less than 2 marking periods, or just that much.) In January a truant officer came to the house, and saw that I was home and had no beef to make with me, I was “home” therefore not of concern, he was out to find the trouble-makers. (Wow!)

That summer we moved to another area in S. FL and I was enrolled in 9th grade again in the local pubic HS. This school was different, moreso like the PA school I was last in, though still not as “something” to me, further behind academically it seemed. I found the music department to be a great place though, the lady in charge was wonderful and found my talents and let me do things that others in my grade weren’t supposed to do. School otherwise was no fun, not worth my time, it seemed. I survived the year there, and went back for 10th, but ran into my old sentiments of hating it too much and I once again quit. This time my parents contracted with our independent baptist church and made a deal to clean the school buildings nightly in return for tuition-free schooling (they had K4-12 school there.) I started in the middle of the first semester and finished out that year, and it was alright, but little better than public school. I went to 11th and had a struggle at the end due to many things and quit during the last couple of weeks. They tried to make a deal with me, to come to full summer school and make up therefore and get passed to 12th. I was done though. I washed my hands of it all.

I eventually got my GED, just to get it. I didn’t study, who needed to? I guess many needed to, but it was a cakewalk and oh, just something I did “because you are supposed to have a diploma” but it isn’t equal to anything if you are female, which I found out when I later went join the Navy, passing the entrance exam easily, and then them finding my GED and little bit of college not enough to let me in afterall. They tried to strong-arm me into delayed-entry, go to college for more credits, then be allowed in. I washed my hands of them right then.

The college I had was a small non-denominational Christian College. I spent my first year there under a music scholarship and enjoyed much of it, but found certain aspects more than I could stand, and therefore flunked some things. I did go back the next year and attained 2nd year status part way through, but then had to take one of the same classes again that I’d flunked and ended up flunking again (both times being because of the class of personality with the prof. … same prof. both years, I couldn’t do it.)

The point with me there though was my friends were in different classes and I studied there stuff with them … stupid me. :wink:

I long before had learned that learning is not about “credentials on paper” but “what’s in my mind” and that has satisfied me all along. I have only had the problem of hating the structures I’ve been forced into, and held back by. I haven’t succeeded in life the way I wish I could have, but I’m satisfied overall, in many respects, about the ability to learn what it is I want to when I want to and that feels fine.

I’m a girl, married, stay at home mother of three, and a non-traditional sort of lady (INTp, more intellect than brawn, not as mundane chore-able as a woman is supposed to be as a stay at home wife/mother. Sigh.)

Before I ever got married I knew that my children wouldn’t ‘go to school’ — I couldn’t fathom WANTING to send them away, or give them to someone else. Once I was married and had my first child, I had such a strong emotional tie to him, I was a Lion-ess about it. Still am. :)

My children actually play more than they should, no doubt, but I would rather they do that, than even at home “force” them to sit and do “this or that” for educational purposes. I am friendly to “Classical Education” but don’t want to implement it in my home on young children. Though it’s a newer history of extending a child’s childhood into their teens, I am allowing it since I am keeping them home and making sure they read as easily as they can as early as they can without pushing. Thus far my 10 year old is reading heavily since 8 years of age, and my (newer) now 8 year old is reading more and more and more with each passing week. My 6 year old is able to read letters (alphabet) and is reading some words, I’m just not pushing him, letting it come naturally. I have found for all of them that they have reading abilities in the form of symbols from age 4 certainly, and alphabet too, but my allowing of them to play lets the actual “literary” reading ability form through time, and when I “test” them with something, a book, an Ad, something that might interest them, I aide them here and there, just don’t push, and eventually they blast ahead when it’s their time.

I could dedicate myself to have them learn to read at 4 to 6 years of age, but it has no bearing on their ability to read when older. I’d rather them just naturally incline to read and be able to read higher materials when they are interested in doing so.

I’m not for dumbing down thier education, just biding time until they are able to read well, and motivated to read more and able to read for themselves and then guide them into self-directed-learning. I don’t have a curriculum for them, but do choose books and things for them to do, and will be doing more and more of that as time goes on.

I want my chidlren to have developed intellects, to THINK, and to learn lifelong, for themselves. I want them to develop their specific talents and not limit themselves to anything particular but be diversified … the old-time way, the early American, the Athenian … etc.

I am thankful that my children haven’t had to be stigmatized at all by an external institution. What a magnificent background in this day and age in the USA. I’m trying to get them reading good materials and to be responsible in chores and thinking for themselves, to be ingenious when the need arises. We have animals to care for. This is a high calling, and one that I think so many people don’t consider a high calling, and few have ability to even have animals to care for (and some don’t even want to have the ability.) Animal husbandry is something one can learn about in books, but hands-on is greater. The experience gained, the responsibility gained, the satisfaction gained … it’s hard, but good work.

So I am hacking away at the full book online linked at the beginning of this post. It’s something I’m thinking that I’ll take index card notes on and jump off from that to read more source on history of the world in education. I read chapter 7 first, then started back at the beginning. Somewhere in there is talk of Athens, and it clicked with some memory of mine from my childhood, reading something somewhere and seeing the free society clearly in my mind and feeling as I did at that young age thinking about it, the clarity of freedom and ultimate understanding and living. :) I’m ready for a full-tilt study of Athens right now. Yummy.

HP “Shift+@” fix

I have an HP Pavillion dv5224nr laptop computer, I had a different dv5000 series laptop before this one (which was sent back for support due to an accidental liquid problem and I got to pick a new one out of stock to replace it –BestBuy’s best “insurance” program for electronics pays off–) and my husband has a dv5215us laptop … I am writing about them because of a problem I’ve seen with all three, and it’s plainly annoying but not world ending …

1. Sometimes when typing, in any program, something happens, what I am not sure, but it’s “as if” the “cap lock” button is “ON” (but it’s not) and so suddenly in the middle of typing all the regular (lower case) text is in CAPS (upper case) and the CAPS (upper case) are in regular (lower case). It is quite annoying, and I have never been able to figure out WHY it happens, but I have figured out, quite by accident, HOW to RESET it so that the keyboard strokes are normal again.

  • type “Shift+@” and all is set to well behaviour once again.
  • So, in practice, it goes like thIS, WHILE TYPING SUDDENLY lOWER cASE IS uPPER cASE SO TO FIX IT I GO: “Shift+@” and then Lower Case is Lower Case again, and Upper Case is Upper Case again.

    So doing that I just back out the “@” symbol to erase “fixer” from my text.

    This is something I haven’t seen documented anywhere online, but it is the case of being a problem on all three dv5000′s we’ve had in this house since 2006 and it’s the only thing short of “restarting win xp” that I know works.

    I might have seen a Q&A that the Q reference this same problem, or something quite close, and the A was “you need to reinstall the system with the hp software … ” HA HA HA! and something like “Make sure to update all your software, win xp, drivers, etc.” as if that’d do it, it’s a problem in HP keyboard software, I bet, and it has never been addressed, as far as I can tell.

    This problem comes in factory setup. Reinstall doesn’t fix it. It’s something in the keyboard software it seems, as I said before. I could make an issue of it with Support, but I don’t because I cannot replicate the problem on purpose, and I know how to “quick reset” it and I just do it and am now writing about it to aide anyone else that might be having this problem.

    I also can not abide the stupidity of “Support” for any product usually, especially computer products … they talk to me/you as if you are a novice stupid user, and that irks me to no end. There’s no way with any of them, thus far to this point in my life, to by-pass the dumb-dumb “did you …” questions, the step 1, step 2, step 3, troubleshooting brochure-fixated support workers (Where are the creative analytical problem solvers in these departments! “Press 1 for basic step by step dumb help, press 7 for creative problem solving help (jump right to what your problem is and get the info to fix your problem in 2 to 10 seconds)” ) so I have never “called” or “emailed” HP Support about this. (As I wrote above a bit, that I did find, once a long while ago, some Q&A online about this sort of thing and was disgusted with the Support A in reference to it.)

    Now, I do not know if this problem is only related to HP’s or in particular HP Laptops, or more particularly only HP dv5000′s — but I do know it’s out-of-the-box with all three dv5000′s we’ve had in this house, and the first one that had it I did have occasion to “reinstall” the software, and that didn’t aide the problem (though something else was the reason I reinstalled in the first place) and all three dv5000′s do have updated software, most definitely.

    2. Another problem that my hubby has on his dv5215us is that in Firefox, when typing into a text box on a message board, or any of the Firefox boxes for url, search, etc. SOMETIMES this happens: suddenly the FIND box opens on the browser and anything he types goes in that box, no matter that he puts the cursor back in the place he WANTS the text to go, it continually puts itself into the FIND box.

    It’s something that seems to go away, but not exactly due to any certain thing. I have never had that happen when I’m working on my computer, and don’t know why it happens to him, but it does on and off, and I know that at times I have suggested he shut all Firefox instances, and that hasn’t aided him when trying with Firefox again, but sometimes it does. Another time or two or three I had him shut all Firefox instances, then open IE (yuck) and use that to navigate the web a bit, then shut that and try Firefox, that did seem to work a couple of times, but another time it didn’t.

    I am reminded of that problem for him since it just happened, and he navigated away from the site he was on and then went back, with the same browser instance, and all was fine on the retry. FWIW

    I don’t know if he tried “Shift+@” for his “Find” problem … but I want him to try that next time to see what happens right away when the problem crops up.