I’ve been really tired lately. I haven’t gotten enough rest/sleep and this morning I slept way over … finally, so don’t feel quite as bad as I usually do by this time of day.

We had a crazy 4th of July, setting off fireworks, running around like crazy, it was fun and exhausting. I guess I feel like I hadn’t “caught up” with rest since then. So it was nice sleeping, but something woke me sometime after 4am, it was my hubby’s alarm clock, but he wasn’t there.

He left on a bus. trip yesterday, & what went off was not his usual, not an alarm, but a loud hissing of a radio not tuned to a station but volume turned way up. Ugh. I struggled to get it off, then laid down again, only to have a beep, beep, beep sometime later (probably snoozed the alarm) and I couldn’t think of what to do except to pull the plug. So I did. Ahhh, relief.

So I went back to bed and slept until my newly 3 year old started telling me to get up, so I was able to respond but go right back to sleep. I told him to get his brother or sister, and his sister said right away she was awake and got up and I zonked out right away again, woke up only when my Palm Pre started to ring. It was 9-something-am. I didn’t answer the phone. But did call him back a few minutes later. It wasn’t very nice. I didn’t feel like talking about anything he said, so he hung up. Oh well.

I’m going to make Pizza for dinner, that needs a lot of energy on my part. I make the whole thing, my own dough, shred the cheese, make the sauce, cook the sausage, put it all together. It usually totals me. So I need to start now, I guess, and get it done with so I can go to bed and hopefully be even more rested tomorrow than I was today. I don’t have anything big to attend too until mid-Aug. So that is good. Hopefully I will be in good shaped for that. (I’m an introvert who stays home with children, no “work” outside, no responsibilities outside of home, so I’m not has “hardened” as I once was. Nor as young as I once was. )

One thing about all this, I was a night owl all my life, until I had my 4th baby right before I turned 41. Since then I sleep at night usually. I get so run down thoughout the day and can’t wait to get to bed and go to sleep. I didn’t ever have the ability to just “go to sleep” until then. I sleep all night, unless someone or something bothers me. Sometimes I get woken up in the middle of the night and I read for a bit or watch something on TV, but I usually then fall asleep fairly easily again. My old life was one of sleep deprivation that I lived with just fine. I couldn’t sleep much without waking up. If I went to bed before Midnight that was too early. Bed before 2am wasn’t often. Even going to bed I’d awake a couple of hours later and be wide awake for 2 or 3 or 4 hours. Often I couldn’t fall asleep until that sun started to come up. I slept hard and fast then, sleeping for a few or two hours like that is what I went on until Midnight again.

So it’s weird still, after 3 years now of sleeping better, I’m still far more tired and still not a “morning person” so I have less time for me than ever.