Event: Trying to get ready

I have a wedding to go to on Saturday, one of my nephews who I haven’t seen since he was 2, I think that’s how long it is, maybe another time, but mostly it’s just through pictures I know him. At any rate, I don’t feel so good this week, things feel more behind than usual because Frank was here for so long without any trips due to his contract being let go suddendly when he didn’t have any others at the time, and then now he’s been gone this week since he picked up another one.

We don’t really have extra money lying around, so it’s been super tight, missing one paycheck, but OK as long as … but that’s not the case now. I don’t have anything to wear on Saturday. My daughter needs new shoes to wear with her one decent enough dress to wear on Saturday. My 9-year old son needs something, no doubt, just what I’m not sure. My 2-year old son needs shoes to wear with the linen outfit my 9-year old wore for Easter in 2002, if it fits my 2-year old, which I don’t know yet, since it was dirty from cats sitting on it & now it’s wet … so maybe he does need shoes for it, or not. If not he needs new shoes & a new outfit.

My husband & 13-year old son have things to get by with.

I’m just frustrated with moving things around here as well, lately, and the mess that uncovers and makes everything else worse. I don’t have the energy to deal with much of it, and I have to get some other things washed and found earlier too that the baby seems to have gone into the laundry room and stopped the load I had going. That’s the most frustrating thing about a front loading washer I must say.

I need to color my hair, for the first time in ages and ages. My hair color is difficult to deal with, and gray/white is coming in more and more here and there, and it’s not nice on me. So I want to go more ash colored not darker, but a tad lighter. Problem is my reddish hair, a lot isn’t red, but light brownish, and others are slightly reddish and others are metallic red. I have a color kit to try and I’ve chickened out every time I’ve tried to make myself do it. Now it’s Thursday before the wedding and I have to wash my hair and dry it before I can do the coloring and I have to go to the airport in less than 3 hours and so it won’t get done today. Oh no! I’m in trouble.

I’ll be seeing at least 2 of my 3 sisters and some Aunt/Uncle/Cousins maybe too. It’s not that I have to travel far, not in trouble for that reason. It’s only a couple of hours away that we need to go, so we don’t have to get a hotel or anything and do this all in a strange place. I just like prepreparation way ahead and I am totally behind because of lack of energy and just as much, lack of money these past few weeks. Frustrating to no end.

Bang(s)

I cut my hair today. I gave myself “bangs” again, for the first time in … years. Not sure how long. I have been sick of my hair falling in my face, in my way when drying after I wash it, just in my way when this and that, and so my tendancy as been to just put it in a ponytail too often, and then be stuck with that since it “pulls” my curls out the more I play with it and don’t wear it down and refresh it. I mean, I take more care of my curls when I wear it down, but ignore them entirely when I put it into a ponytail forever until I wash it again, which means I’ll sleep in a ponytail and wear one for days if I’m not going any where that means much to me. If I want to look better then I’ll wash it, but I don’t have to wash my hair much, since it I do use the “conditioner only” method and I don’t have dirty looking hair, like say my 9 year old daughter gets easily (she has very straight hair.)

A few weeks ago I did cut some of my length off. It wasn’t much overall, since I’m post-pardum, I was left with straggling ends, especially in the back, so I cut off a few inches and had a small handful of hair. It made it feel different, but I still wasn’t satisfied with it. So I made bangs today, and wonder if I made them a tad too short (curly hair “shrinks” when ‘reset’ with water, and boy did they ever BOING up, but they’ll grow fast) and don’t know if I cut enough of my hair into “bangs” –so I’ll have to play with it to make a decision about more bangs, or not, and should I cut the length a bit more, or even give myself some layers to give the top of my hair so lift (being a Botticelli curly girl) -meaning that the top layer won’t be as heavy if it’s shorter than the length, so it’ll curly up more easily, instead of being pulled down as usually when all the hair is longer. It should already be a tad of difference in the front just because the “bangs” are there now instead of the much longer locks that were there this morning, and for years before, in different renditions (I had cut the front a bit some time ago, to give me something shorter there, but way longer than “bangs” and then I had it longer after that and for a long time before that.)

The thing about me is that I have wanted to grow my hair as long as I can get it. But … I want my hair to be as curly as it can be. The two don’t go together as objectives to get as the same time. I tried so hard to do the growing, and did very well for quite awhile, but it just feels so blah and that’s why I got my bangs back. I don’t like how I am much without bangs, but lived like that for a long time. :rolleyes:

I will not cut my hair “short” overall. I still want long hair, but I need to have it free to flow into curls happily, and that means shorter layers here and there at some degree. So I have my work cut out to figure that all out. (Yes, all by myself, I just don’t do ‘salons’ any more, I never have had long enough hair after coming out of one of them, either my choice to go shorter or their twisting of me to go shorter than I seemed to want, but they generally don’t consider the “curl” and that’s danger danger danger! I actually like doing my own hair cutting anyhow. It’s a slow process when I do it, some this day, some that day, whenever it suits me. :smile: )