How can I deal with trauma. I mean past, stuffed down. The stuff that activates when my significant other has ingested alcohol of any kind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It’s killing me. I have stuff to deal with, and it’s too hard to deal with, so dealing is out the window.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am fearful. I am disgusted, I am frozen, I am fighting, I am sick.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I have been sicker since this all got going … and it’s going further and deeper and troubling to exist.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
How can I deal with trauma. I mean past, stuffed down. The stuff that activates when my significant other has ingested alcohol of any kind. It’s killing me. I have stuff to deal with, and it’s too hard to deal with, so dealing is out the window. I am fearful. 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