Migraine Set #1.2

I had a migraine Wednesday, which I wrote about in a previous post. I got rid of it by that night. Thursday I woke up and felt alright. Sometime during the late afternoon I got a black mood feeling settling over me. I also realized I hadn’t eaten lunch and didn’t care that I hadn’t, wasn’t “hungry” at all, and still wasn’t.

I got very sleepy during dinner, and didn’t eat very much, and went to bed right away afterward. I watched TV but fell asleep and woke up and fell asleep, etc. I woke again nearer to Midnight and felt my sinuses pressing inward slowly, so I, recalling my Migraine from the day before, took a Sudafed, as I had then. It helped eventually, but when I fell asleep and awoke again later, I knew it didn’t stop what was inevitable, the migraine was there in it’s full ugly creepiness on the left side, and so I went to find my Excedrin, though I do not want to be using it (being pregnant) but don’t know what else to do (and not wanting to repeat my previous migraine experience in “trying not to use it” and suffering badly and using it anyhow later and more and then more.)

So this am I am up, it’s raining heavily, gloomy out and I can still feel the migraine, it was lighter in the middle of the night, but it’s been several hours now since the Excedrin dose. It’s not a horrid pain, but just nagging and threatening to worsen.

Last night I had a clue about my black mood that was sinking to cover my entire being. But I ignored it.

I can see it as plain as day with hindsight, the first clue being my lack of appetite, lack of hunger (most especially noticeable for me now that I am pregnant, and hungry often enough usually.)

When I am not pregnant I don’t get very hungry often, but when I have a migraine coming my first sign is usually suppression of appetite entirely, which I don’t always notice, but will think about once time goes on and I have another symptom or two.

I must say it’s quite annoying, these certain migraines that have this “black mood” pre-setup. It’s the most horrible thing, to feel that way. It passes, but I wish it wouldn’t come at all. I can look back at it and see it, and it’s like a 3rd person view. But I know what it feels like in the 1st person, it’s a vacant soul like feeling.

Anyhow, in the past few years, or more, I’ve noted that a lot of my migraines come in three’s. One, then Another, then Another. They usually have reprieve of truly whole state between them, but only hours, or a day or night, usually not more than a whole day, usually less.

So Wednesday around Midnight #1 started (compressed sinuses and pain growing suddenly on the right side, and fairly bad progress) and left me by later afternoon. Thursday morning I was alright, but lack of appetite set in around Noon, probably, and the by late afternoon I could feel the black mood settling in for a spell. Then sleepiness hit, another clue for me, totally sleepiness. Awakening with compressed sinuses beginning, then falling asleep again and waking with the pain beginning on the left side. At my time of writing: 9:56am currently, the pain is still there and will either go away soon, or get worse, I’ll either fall prey to weakness to use Excedrin, or not. I don’t know. Firstly I’ll make an egg to eat and see if THAT helps, which it could, but that doesn’t work like magic usually.

To get grotestque here for a moment, these sorts of migraines seem to involve the intestines, and when the intestines move, they move and move and move and finally the migraine ceases to plague, for a time. It’s particular that they do NOT move at first and getting them to move seems to be helpful, but isn’t easy since the stomach is really not happy in the process, usually churning as well. I have also found, in the past, a very upset tummy in the middle of the migraine can be so acidic and horrible, and a Tums, then later another, can aide the migraine in leaving, but it’s not magic that works every time.

It’s all a mystery, ’cause I just take what comes to me, and making sense of migraines is a pasttime that shows some patterns, but no absolutes.

In pregnancy now, I loathe to think that I’ll be plagued with migraines this whole time off and on. I was with my daughter inside, but not with my two boys. I do hope I can carry this babe to term safely, but I do worry that since I’m still very early this could signal something wrong, or not, but don’t know, so I worry. It could just mean it’s a girl and it’s going to be rough. Of course this isn’t proven exactly for me that a girl would do this, but the one I did have that was a girl was plagued with migraines, and the two boys were so lovely to carry, little of that, and if any they were light and didn’t happen often either (like hardly at all, really.)

So I sit here thinking of this, wanting this #2 Migraine to end so we can get on with #3 and be done with this set. 🙁