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Guts seem impossible to fix but I’m trying
Impossible dream. Yes, that is true. I can’t fix my guts. Lets say they weren’t great all along but not this bad. What happened at the end of 2020 was a virus that went through everyone in the house, and I was hit with horrible guts since then. I dealt with it better after a…
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A/C is broken
Here we are again. A/C is broken. Last week it was really rattling and so noisy, then on Friday (8-4-2023) it quit blowing and screeched. Technician arrived and poking around found a wheel that drives the fan was broken. That is a part they didn’t have in-stock and would have to order it from the…
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Stress
Anyone can take a stressor and turn it into a benign thing to not react to. When I do that in my home, it is me being ambivalent to my husband’s excessive attitude for drinking alcohol, then making it into a non-reaction thing. Ignore functioning. That’s how one enables another. When I mention the words…
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Trauma
Why is that I seem to have PTSD or CPTSD, rather, at this time of my life. I thought I could handle things and ended up making a few dumb choices which impact me to this day. I have all the hallmark signs but having an ILI personality I was able to lock the traumas…
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The end
Issues with heat, stress, etc. and of course, our A/C has broken. Over the course of the day, my guts have liquified. Living like this in August is intolerable. I think I’ll die