Just keeps getting worse

On September 25, Friday, I woke up with way more crap happening with my arms and fingers. It is now, Tuesday and it’s still bad. I really don’t know why this happens.

So my doctor visit is upcoming in about a week.

I want OFF of this night time med, and changing Ibuprofen amount or cutting it out. I need something to stop all the crap, Ibuprofen is my only thing for PAIN in my fingers. It doesn’t really help much. I mean everything has hurt MORE since using Ibuprofen more as I’m supposed to take it twice a day, and the nighttime thing since the night before my birthday means right now I’m well past two full months of use and got three or four major migraines last week and used ELETRIPTAN because that’s all I can do when taking Ibuprofen like I am supposed to.

I still have weird migraine signs most of the time, it’s just worse now than it was before my birthday when Dr. changed me to Amitriptyline. My fingers hurt in such a way it’s inpossible to explain with words. Basically the base of each finger feels thick, and miserable and everything above that hurts like the dickens.

My ring fimger started acting weird then each joint in it got enflamed looking right after my birthday. Using finger splints only causes more pain.

I wear compression gloves most of the time. It makes me feel more comfortable. Everything is swollen and weird on each hand and lots of other fingers got the joint swollen thing now too.

Just worse and worse and this is what I hate. What is my baseline of pain. I can’t check that out without quitting all of this. My shoulders are usually sore or tight, and my elbow now feel like they are really right and swollen inside and pinched and god knows what.

Also this whole time I have the feeling of I need to crack my knuckles on most fingers. My ring fingers on both hands are weird and mostly never can crack. My pinkies have a little crack, and my right pointer has a bigger crack or little sometimes. My left middle finger gets a huge crack on it’s base. My Left pointer gets a knuckle crack often and the base a really deep crack. My Left Middle finger feels the thickest and will crack at the base a lot, and also all down by twisting a bit. My thumbs will crack my arms crack my knees crack my ankles too. My elbows are really so more annoying since Friday.

I don’t want to crack all that. I HAVE to and then I can’t anymore but it still feels like it needs it, but then later it hurts more and can crack again, feels Ok but still not great and round and round all day, all night.

Living sucks right now, and my ADHD brain is pushing me to do more. Get up build, cook, work on something USE MY HANDS to do stuff. It’s not just my shoulder and down to my hands, my whole body is overwhelmed.

Just sitting or wandering and doing nothing is non-dopamine. Hell.

Oh, and my guts hurt now too.