December has come. I’m trying to make room in the house for a Christmas Tree, not sure what type as of yet. I have to get decorations for it, so the less costliest thing is best. Big cut tree costs less than a growing live little tree. But little tree takes smaller decorations, little cut trees I do not like. I only like little live trees since they are alive and have life to plant. The one we got last year just died, DH didn’t plant it when he should of, as well as never planted it. It was sad, still is a sad thing.
So I’m just not sure what I’ll do. I have made a card to send to family and a few far away friends. (a scrapbook type card, pop-up and with stuff printed out from computer and punch-outs.) I decided to do that after I made a pop-up for the birthday girl last week. I found a template online for a butterfly, and made it a scrapbook card without planning. That same site had a few other templates for pop-ups, and so when I had a few hours by myself this past week, the idea and card for Christmas blossomed without my help. I just did it. I spent time yesterday punching out snowflakes and numbers for the cards. I have to get the pop-ups done still, then can piece everything together.
This is more than I’ve done in the past few years. I gave up on cards overall (just a hassled, you know), and then loosing the baby I did in my first-trimester, I just didn’t care to send anything around that next Christmas or the next at all. I still don’t care to, just am in the mood to scrapbook and so a card idea grew and made me make it.
The tree then, I don’t like little cut trees, and my idea of it all is that I really would like an alive tree that is beautiful, like a Blue Spruce, but they are so much more money than another type of alive tree for Christmas. I love cut trees for their look, but then I don’t really want to decorate a tall slim cut tree, like I like. I am not wanting a fake tree ever. I hate those. I grew up with those. I hate those.
Much of this goes to the fact that our house is in “half-torn-apart-ness” and there is just no nice place to “do Christmas decorating”. We don’t really have a “living room”. Let us put it another way, even if things are not torn apart, we have little to no “decorating” done anywhere year round. My idea for the Christmas look is beautious, and I have NEVER been able to get done what I would wish to for the season. It’s not that I don’t like decorations around, “decor” on the walls, it’s just that it costs money, and there are things to get and things not to get and in our house “gadgets win”. I like decor, but books, CD’s and computers and games and mp3 players and electric this and that are more wanted. Typical nerd/geek household.
This is why we can live in a torn apart house. It’s no big deal to a nerd/geek. On that line of thought it’s interesting to note that DH has taken some of the online quiz things about these topics and he gets rated as a “normal” person usually, slightly nerd, but mostly not. Not geek at all. These all use the modern definitions, of course, not the meanings that we all knew back in the 70’s and 80’s. So taking that into my thinking on this, he’s less into decor than I am. I do love it really, just have to split my likes into can do and cannot do categories. Add to that all: he doesn’t care about Christmas either, so it’s me doing it or it doesn’t get thought of. He’ll buy presents, but that’s it, no decor, nothing cosy and pretty for the holiday.
Ah, I’m just torn this way and that way with needing things finished in the house, new sink, and such … and living –needing books, and crafty things, clothing, and then having to pull from nothing to make Christmas a magical time for the family. It’s just taking the messy cluttery cramped space and making it lovely and red and green and sparkly and comfy, when it wasn’t even comfy before … see there, too insane to do.
So cards I’ll send to some, but whatelse, remains to be seen.
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