I woke up before 4am today. Didn’t feel like I could go back to sleep. So I was up, drank water, listened to music in my office, time went on, I was enragengly hungry suddenly. It became so insistent I had to go make bacon and and a fried egg. Eating that at 5am was…

My family has all been here since Thursday late morning. Very nice, but then again, not. Why? My family is all so very closed off, and it’s because of alcohol. Hubby just stays in his office room. That’s it, or sits outside with a book. That’s all he does. With alcohol. Or wishing about it.…

How can I deal with trauma. I mean past, stuffed down. The stuff that activates when my significant other has ingested alcohol of any kind. It’s killing me. I have stuff to deal with, and it’s too hard to deal with, so dealing is out the window. I am fearful. I am disgusted, I am…

Get up… Drink Fiji water, and part of another bottle. Plus a small pinch of Celtic Sea Salt. Next have Shilajit & coffee with hemp oil (THC free) and cream. A bit later… Eat breakfast and take 1 Tributyrin-X soft-gel. later, between eating meals/snack, take 2 Inflammatone capsules. (1 serving) I wish I could take…