• Fall Seasonal Allergies, yes I fall for them

    Autumn Seasonal Allergies have ramped up the last few days, leaving me with a sore raw throat yesterday late afternoon, and sinus pressure everywhere increasing …. sneezing, dripping, feeling off, slow, thick, emotionless. OH JUST BE DONE WITH IT! Today I feel like a zombie. Inflammation is at play too. Won’t get through the days…


  • 60-Day Leaky Gut Reboot

    September 5th I started: 60-Day Leaky Gut Reboot using the three products from Healthy Gut (I got the items on Amazon, and setup subscribe and save for my next set of bottles there on Amazon.) healthygut.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/08/get-powerful-lasting-gut-health-results-2110.pdf Page 10 has the 60-Day information. Healthy Gut products for this program HoloImmune: HoloZyme: Tributyrin-X:


  • Everything is too much

    My family has all been here since Thursday late morning. Very nice, but then again, not. Why? My family is all so very closed off, and it’s because of alcohol. Hubby just stays in his office room. That’s it, or sits outside with a book. That’s all he does. With alcohol. Or wishing about it.…


  • Why is everything so

    How can I deal with trauma. I mean past, stuffed down. The stuff that activates when my significant other has ingested alcohol of any kind. It’s killing me. I have stuff to deal with, and it’s too hard to deal with, so dealing is out the window. I am fearful. I am disgusted, I am…


  • My Minimalistic Reset

    Get up… Drink Fiji water, and part of another bottle. Plus a small pinch of Celtic Sea Salt. Next have Shilajit & coffee with hemp oil (THC free) and cream. A bit later… Eat breakfast and take 1 Tributyrin-X soft-gel. later, between eating meals/snack, take 2 Inflammatone capsules. (1 serving) I wish I could take…


  • Guts seem impossible to fix but I’m trying

    Impossible dream. Yes, that is true. I can’t fix my guts. Lets say they weren’t great all along but not this bad. What happened at the end of 2020 was a virus that went through everyone in the house, and I was hit with horrible guts since then. I dealt with it better after a…


  • A/C is broken

    Here we are again. A/C is broken. Last week it was really rattling and so noisy, then on Friday (8-4-2023) it quit blowing and screeched. Technician arrived and poking around found a wheel that drives the fan was broken. That is a part they didn’t have in-stock and would have to order it from the…

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      A/C was fixed a week ago exactly, it actually was 4 horrible days of stress and heat killing me, but in the end it’s working better now, not perfect but better.


  • Stress

    Anyone can take a stressor and turn it into a benign thing to not react to. When I do that in my home, it is me being ambivalent to my husband’s excessive attitude for drinking alcohol, then making it into a non-reaction thing. Ignore functioning. That’s how one enables another. When I mention the words…


  • Trauma

    Why is that I seem to have PTSD or CPTSD, rather, at this time of my life. I thought I could handle things and ended up making a few dumb choices which impact me to this day. I have all the hallmark signs but having an ILI personality I was able to lock the traumas…

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      So of course as I was finishing up writing the above article, DH had a large can of beer. Then another and started smart mouthing arguing with me about it … just drinks too much for his ability to hold liquor.


  • The end

    Issues with heat, stress, etc. and of course, our A/C has broken. Over the course of the day, my guts have liquified. Living like this in August is intolerable. I think I’ll die


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Lottie on December 18, 2023

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